The couds break
and the sun shines again.
I celebrated 3 weeks of non smoking yesterday. I have a few thoughts on that to share.
1. I feel great. Not only great but very very optimistic. Something changed from my attempt last year. Last year I tried to quit and I missed smoking. I mean I really missed smoking. Although I trudged through for awhile, I was miserable. This time I'm not. I don't miss it at all. I don't crave it, don't remember it fondly, don't have triggers when I smell smoke. In fact, the smell makes me sick and I LOVE that my clothes smell like my favourite perfume now, not like an ashtray. My heightened sense of smell and taste is a bonus too. Well, except for cramped spaces and other peoples flatulance but lets stick to the positives ok? My routine is working and it appears my metabolism is re-setting itself . I didn't limited myself in food over these past weeks. I just added more cardio to compensate and it worked. The 4 pounds I gained has dropped by itself down to 1.5.
2. Its a huge accomplishment for me. Bigger than people understand. I'm a control freak. I have always controlled everything and I could not control this. I could not control that poison I was addicted to. There was self loathing in that. A weakness about myself I detested. Now, I control it. 100%
3. People are waiting for me to fail. Fuck, I hate that. A piece of advice for all you non smokers who have a loved one trying to quit. SUPPORT THEM! I don't care if they have tried and failed 1 million times before. It's IRRELEVANT. At this moment in time they have quit. Thats RELEVANT. Don't assume they'll fail. Give them reason to succeed.
4. Jesse was my biggest inspiration and I owe her huge. In fact, I may just owe her my life.
Speaking of my sunshine, she's coming home soon. I can't begin to explain how happy I feel about that. I've been literally skipping around these past few days. The sun just seems to shine brighter, my steps are lighter, my smile is brighter. The world will soon be right again. My favourite expression at home " WE are 5..not 4,3,2 or 1. We are 5!"
Can I Pleeeeeease start shopping soon? I'm losing my mind because I haven't started Christmas shopping. Normally, I'm almost done by now but because of everything that has gone down, time was precious and shopping didn't make the cut. Look out. It'll be chaos when I step into that shopping mall soon.
I celebrated 3 weeks of non smoking yesterday. I have a few thoughts on that to share.
1. I feel great. Not only great but very very optimistic. Something changed from my attempt last year. Last year I tried to quit and I missed smoking. I mean I really missed smoking. Although I trudged through for awhile, I was miserable. This time I'm not. I don't miss it at all. I don't crave it, don't remember it fondly, don't have triggers when I smell smoke. In fact, the smell makes me sick and I LOVE that my clothes smell like my favourite perfume now, not like an ashtray. My heightened sense of smell and taste is a bonus too. Well, except for cramped spaces and other peoples flatulance but lets stick to the positives ok? My routine is working and it appears my metabolism is re-setting itself . I didn't limited myself in food over these past weeks. I just added more cardio to compensate and it worked. The 4 pounds I gained has dropped by itself down to 1.5.
2. Its a huge accomplishment for me. Bigger than people understand. I'm a control freak. I have always controlled everything and I could not control this. I could not control that poison I was addicted to. There was self loathing in that. A weakness about myself I detested. Now, I control it. 100%
3. People are waiting for me to fail. Fuck, I hate that. A piece of advice for all you non smokers who have a loved one trying to quit. SUPPORT THEM! I don't care if they have tried and failed 1 million times before. It's IRRELEVANT. At this moment in time they have quit. Thats RELEVANT. Don't assume they'll fail. Give them reason to succeed.
4. Jesse was my biggest inspiration and I owe her huge. In fact, I may just owe her my life.
Speaking of my sunshine, she's coming home soon. I can't begin to explain how happy I feel about that. I've been literally skipping around these past few days. The sun just seems to shine brighter, my steps are lighter, my smile is brighter. The world will soon be right again. My favourite expression at home " WE are 5..not 4,3,2 or 1. We are 5!"
Can I Pleeeeeease start shopping soon? I'm losing my mind because I haven't started Christmas shopping. Normally, I'm almost done by now but because of everything that has gone down, time was precious and shopping didn't make the cut. Look out. It'll be chaos when I step into that shopping mall soon.
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